I'm retrieving my power again. I've done this at significant moments throughout my life. This time it's different. In the past, I imagined myself reeling in my spirit from parents, teachers, bosses and beliefs. I pulled it back from "them" into "me." My diminished self felt stronger, more focused on what I wanted to do. Then I lost power and had to retrieve it again and again.
This time, I'm recovering power from a more unified perspective. Self and Other have become varied currents moving within one field of energy. Taking back my power isn't about getting it from "them." It's seeing through the belief in "self and other" to the power that is already animating and shaping both.
Far from everything melting into one, mindless energy soup. This unified experience of power emboldens me while freeing me from threats of power in others. They don't own it and neither do I. Power is life force flowing through each and every one of us.
My access to power isn't determined by what I hold. It's determined by releasing control and opening to the torrent already rushing from life into itself. Now, my work is lovingly and wisely cooperating with raw life energy as it animates and shapes the features of my individuality. Its appreciating raw power moving and defining the features of other individuals and seeing how our interactions magnify the forms and functions of power.
Encountering abuses of power, I see Mind and Ego desperately attempting to put themselves in the driver's seat of life energy. I see the wisdom in that energy working as it rips their fingers from the steering wheel and liquefies their illusions. Instead of fighting to take my power back, I notice how the life force is directing the scene and enact my role in the unfolding cosmic drama. It's better this way.