Wednesday, April 29, 2015

I Need Your Help with My Health Crisis

I’m facing the biggest challenge of my life and I need your help.

A year ago, I was diagnosed with Neurological Lyme Disease. This has triggered Parkinson’s Disease, which was officially diagnosed a few weeks ago on April 10th. These illnesses have left me extremely weak and with severely impaired mind-body functioning. Even simple tasks, like walking, cooking and bathing are a struggle. I am perpetually exhausted and confined to working at home. If my condition worsens, I will be unable to take care of myself.

Conventional medicine sees Parkinson’s as a degenerative and ultimately fatal disease. The standard treatment with pharmaceuticals only masks the symptoms with increasingly severe side effects. For 10 years, I watched my mother battle Parkinson’s using this standard treatment. She went through an increasingly horrific degeneration until she died in a nursing home two years ago.

I’m determined to create a different outcome with better medicine. I’ve chosen to take an alternative, but well-tested, route that promises to naturally reduce my symptoms and even offers the real possibility of a complete cure and recovery.

Dr. Beth McDougall, a Mill Valley M.D., has had great success with an integrative approach to treating Lyme and Parkinson's diseases. Dr. McDougall’s protocol is two-pronged: 1) Nourish the brain transmitters with natural dopamine from amino acids, and 2) Regenerate the brain receptors with a powerful antitoxin that restores normal neurological functions. This dual approach repairs the two essential aspects of brain functioning and restores mind/body health without the negative side effects of pharmaceuticals.

I recently began treatment with Dr. McDougall and am already experiencing greater energy and improved mind/body coordination. Unfortunately, despite the success of this protocol, this alternative treatment is not covered by insurance. Thus, I am faced with two options: settle for the ineffective conventional treatment or pay for a natural and effective cure. My condition has made it more and more difficult to work and I have already used up my savings. This means that the only way I will be able to continue with Dr. McDougall’s treatments is with the help of you and other friends.

To afford the full year of treatment Dr. McDougall anticipates will be required, and effectively supplement my best efforts to make money, I am asking for a total of $75,000. By the end of the projected 12 months of treatment and recovery, I believe I will be able to fully support myself once again. It is beyond humbling for me to ask for this help, as I have always been self-sufficient. Yet, I have no choice. My life literally depends on it.

I have dedicated my life to helping others live in nurturing and healthy homes. My books, The Temple in the House and A Home for the Soul, have inspired people around the globe to find greater beauty and create more nourishing places to dwell in the world. Please help me regain my health so I can continue the work of making the world a more beautiful and soulful place to live.

I’m grateful for any help you can give, however large or small. My goal is to raise $75,000 within 30 days, so I can enjoy the security and peace of knowing I will be able to finish Dr. McDougall’s full course of treatments without interruption. I’ll keep you updated on my recovery. Thank you for helping me in my time of need.

Please make your donation in one of two ways:

1) GoFundMe

GoFundMe is a long-established, well-respected personal fundraising website that is quick and easy to use. They accept credit cards, and your donation will go directly into my campaign.

1) Go to “Tony Lawlor Needs Your Help” at

2) Medical Assistance Foundation

The Medical Assistance Foundation is a 501(c)3 charitable organization operated by my long-time friends Steve and Sheila Terry, from Fairfield, Iowa. The advantage here is that 100% of your donation is tax deductible and they charge no fees so that same 100% will go directly to me if you a note saying, "Inspired by Tony Lawlor." (see Step 2 below)

1) Go to

2) To donate by credit card or PayPal, click on Donate under ‘1) By PayPal.’ Please be sure to indicate that this
donation is to be directed to me by clicking on the “+Add a Note” link on the Review Your Donation page, then add a
note saying, “Inspired by Tony Lawlor.”

3) To send a check, download the Mail-in Donation Form and put a Post-It note on your check saying, “Inspired by Tony Lawlor.”

For those who wish to make a monthly donation, please let me know the amount and the term of your pledge.

If you have any questions or just want to connect, please leave a comment.

In deepest gratitude and love,


P.S. Please forward this request to your network of family and friends to ensure that I can reach my healing goal. Again, thank you.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

The Power of Architecture

I love this photo of the Oxford Union Library. What we build embodies what we truly value and this structure is a temple to books. In celebrating books, this room honors the knowledge gained and shared on the human journey. In celebrating our passage through the mysteries of life, this architecture points beyond its boundaries toward that which cannot be described. Pointing toward that which is beyond description, we rediscover the source of existence and the creative power of being and becoming. If we do not create places to honor these things we live in poverty. Imagining and building such inspired architecture, we discover who we truly are and what we can become.

Monday, December 22, 2014

Sacred Space: Sparking Matter to Life

Sacred space shimmers in the places where consciousness caresses matter. In the savored overlap of awareness and physical form, both we and the world come alive. The separation that inflicts the false wound of I as separate from the surroundings rediscovers its (w)holiness as unified energy-matter. In this overlap, stones can breathe. Our elusive inner stream of thoughts and emotions can be felt as tangible patterns and shapes. The awakening spark of consciousness and the world igniting one another can happen anywhere, in the cathedral and the check out line, through a stained glass window and a path through a silent wood. The portal is the here/now. It is entered where the rays of our consciousness meet the places where we dwell. Here, sacred space sparks to life.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

The Architecture of Light-Shadow

Architecture comes alive in light. Morning rays awaken roofs and walls. They flow through windows, stirring interior spaces to life. Glowing surfaces reveal the shapes and spaces of every detail from countertops to cornices. Each design choice selects an inflection of light. Every choice of light is a choice of shadow. Without shadow, light cannot be perceived. Gradations of light and shadow reveal a dome's arc, the zig-zag rise of a staircase and the billows of a down comforter. The term light-shadow, or shadow-light, more accurately describes the experience of illumination.

Moving through the day, the radiance of light-shadow provides ever-shifting wonder. Wherever I am, I can savor the magical nuances of shadow-light as it dances across the surfaces of the world. At the darkest times, I can dwell in the light.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

The Architecture of Tangible Support

Architecture is support embodied. Floors, chairs and tables provide stable settings to uphold the details of our lives. They offer their support equally to all. It doesn't matter if you're having a great day or a crappy one, if you're a saint or a sinner, a park bench provides you with a place to rest, talk with a friend, read a book or enjoy the scenery. Look around and you will see architecture's support everywhere—the stair treads that lift you from one floor to another, the road that winds over the mountain, the bridge that carries you across a river, the cooktop that supports your simmering soup, the bed that receives your rest. Behind each of these objects are the supportive intentions and actions of those who created them. So, when you're looking for a little support, you can find it right under your feet or close at hand in architecture.

Friday, December 12, 2014

Hidden Energy

When most people look at Antonio Gaudi's architecture they see undulating structures. I see energy. To me, the fluid shapes of his walls and windows, columns and railings reveal the forces animating the forms. As I photographed the roof ridge in the photo, I sensed it writhing like the spine of an immense dragon. When I visited other Gaudi sites, I found the dragon there too, rippling through the designs. Encountering the old master's work in this way transformed the way I see architecture. Instead of static masses, "frozen music" as Goethe put it, I see vessels that coax energy from the earth and sky and guide it into flowing streams of shelter and support. Buildings don't have to look like Gaudi's to transmit life-giving energy. Any outer style can come alive when designed with heart. Life can be breathed into any bit of matter to become a living being that inspires those who dwell within it.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014


I love the ways architecture evokes wonder. A vision stirs the soul. Mind plans how to translate that vision into tangible form. Body locates the land and gathers the materials. Piece by piece the vision is constructed. Then WOW, weighty matter rises and swoops through space. The gravity of doubt and fear falls away and our imaginations soar. Beauty floods our senses and we experience what is possible when we open to wonder.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

The First Supper

After 8 days of a cleansing fast and a day of diluted orange juice, I prepare vegetable broth for my first meal. The green liquid in a red bowl offers the colors of a summertime Christmas. Raising the bowl to my lips, every cell in my body seems to surge forth to devour the gift of flowing nourishment. One sip fills me with flavor and gratitude. This primal act is holy without reasons or definitions, without gods or sages. It is Life consuming itself to continue. It is my body opening to receive the offerings of the earth from
which it came.

How many countless bites of food and sips of liquid have I taken, not really aware of this miracle? In how many immeasurable ways does life nourish me moment by moment as I fret about how I will survive and worry about whether I am loved? Those unconscious moments and groundless fears seem laughable during this sacred First Supper.

During the 8 day fast, my mind and body became wonderfully still and clear. The world became vividly vibrant and beautiful. The whirlwind of activity and striving outside my door seemed more mysterious than ever. All the hurry and hustle looked like it was preparing for a feast that already existed. We only needed to stop, see it and drink it in.

You and I have heard this all before. Yet, in the sweep of living we forget, again and again. I'm thankful I had the time and means to step back for a while and let my mind and body rest in stillness. Hopefully, the experience sunk deeper into my bones than before and I will delight more fully in each morsel of food and each gulp of liquid. Enjoy you next meal. Bon Apetit!

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Creating a Kitchen for Your Soul

Your kitchen is calling. It's inviting you to engage the magic of transformation by taking the gifts of the earth and cooking them into meals that nourish the depths of your being. To make a kitchen for your soul, you don't need an expensive remodel. You don't need new cabinets or industrial strength appliances. All you need is to open your senses to the act of preparing food and the willingness to appreciate the simple miracle being created in the act.
It only takes a moment to shift your kitchen from a storage room for snacks into a place of soulful alchemy. Instead of unconsciously stumbling into your kitchen and grabbing something from the frig, plopping it on a plate and stuffing it in your mouth, try this. Stop, look at where you are and sense the possibilities. The stove is offering fire. The sink is providing water, the refrigerator and cupboards are filled with earthy bounty from the world's garden. All that's needed is for you to feel the desire in your belly and allow it to guide you in creating a meal. As you open the doors of the frig or cabinet to select the vegetables, grains and other items, savor the colors, shapes and design of the food. Imagine the fields and orchards they came from and the natural processes of weather and soil that produced them. As you slice and combine the ingredients, notice how your participation transforms the raw materials of nature and sense your consciousness as an ingredient being blended into the mix. When you place the mixture on the stove or in the oven, feel the power of fire to release the flavors from within the food. 
When the meal is cooked, serve it and eat it with the same attention you put into the preparation. Appreciate the colors and aroma of the food. Enjoy the shapes and materials of the plates and eating utensils. Actually taste what you are tasting. Feel the nourishment of what your are swallowing. Breathe and notice how easy it was to create a kitchen for your soul.
If you do want to remodel your existing kitchen or are planning one for a new home, use the experience I described above as the basis for creating  a soulful place to cook.  See your kitchen as a place where the elements of fire, water, earth and air interact to produce meals that nourish both body and soul. Choose a range that evokes the experience of  primal fire. Select a sink and faucet that honors the fluid, transforming qualities of water. Find cabinets that celebrate the foods you will store in them. Create a kitchen that inspires you to explore creative possibilities, one that says to you, "Let's cook!"

Learn more about creating a home for your soul by clicking here.

Monday, November 18, 2013

How Home Inspires Your Life Journey

One of the most important ways you can enrich the soulfulness of your home is to make it a place that honors the process of living. I came across a beautiful example of this at an apartment building in Santa Rosa, California. Next to the entrance, a series of murals lovingly depicts the passage from newborn infant to aged death. Images such as this offer poignant reminders that moving from one stage of life another is natural. What seems like a loss at a given moment can become a gain at the next. Furthermore, these murals show us that we are not alone in our day-to-day challenges and triumphs. Everyone inhabiting this apartment building goes through them and these shared experiences make us all members of the human family.